Is she 1 or 4?

Somedays I just want to pull my hair out because the stress of being a single mother of 3 is just way too much! Almost as if the kids know I've hit my breaking point, they do something to make me realize that its all worth it.

Yesterday, we were laying on a sheet in the grass watching cars go by and enjoying the beautiful weather. Maya decided that she was going to fix all of my "boo boos", (any kind of mark on my legs), so she took leaves and used them as band aids and used flowers to "treat" the boo boos. She kept telling me to "Be a lax" and at first I had NO clue what she was saying, then it hit me, she's telling me to 'Relax', lol!!

To beat the heat yesterday we filled a plastic storage bin with water to let the girls play in, it was just big enough so that they could both fit in there and sit. Jokingly, I asked Maya if I could get in too and she said, "No mommy, your butts too bigger.". She says these things so easily, she doesn't realize how blunt she really is. I really don't know where she got that edge from, I'm not like that. I'm blunt when I need to be, mainly when it comes to the kids, but its not an easy thing for me.

Today she has been whining about everything, I told her she sounds like a 1 year old and she started crying because she doesn't want to be 1, she wants to be 2. I sat her in time out for a minute and she sat there crying, saying "I don't want to be 1 anymore, I will be pour (four) now, I stop crying, peas (please)!!"

I try so hard to remember all of these things that she says, I want to tell her when she is older. Maya has always been so dramatic, since the day she was born. Everything about this child has been a production! If she is giving me this much of a hard time at 4, I can't imagine what she will have in store for me when she is 13. Pray for me.