Writing my own kind of fairy tale

I always knew that deployments would be hard, but I had no idea it would be THIS hard. I went from having my own place with my husband and our 2 beautiful girls and a big preggo belly to just me and 3 beautiful girls..living with my mom. I'm just barely over half way done and I feel as if I'm running off of fumes. I think that certain circumstances in my life have made me stronger and gave me the tough skin to get by. There are still days that I do nothing but mope around and feel as if my glass is half empty. However, I have 3 of the most amazing children in my life that keep me going. 3 completely different personalities that keep me on my toes.
Maya is my first born, she will be 4 next month, (as much as I want her to stay 3, I know it won't happen). She is the most literal child I have ever met in my life, she is incredibly emotional, but so loving and takes her "big sister" role very seriously! She has the biggest imagination and some of the things that she comes up with are so off the wall that I laugh about it for days. For example: "Mommy, why your pace (face) not all pretty?", "Mommy, you cant be a pwincess, you just a boy", and "Daddy is just a mermaid." She can sit for hours and make the same snowman out of her play doh over and over again, she knows more about my DSI than I do, and she is now a backseat driver. She never ceases to amaze me with the things that she learns and retains on a daily basis. She goes to school every Friday and the only thing she looks forward to is seeing her boyfriend Jesse thats in her class, hes her "boypriend". She is my big girl and time is going by so fast, before I know it she will be in school.
Bonne Anne is my second born, she is two and a half. Out of all 3 she is my most loving child. The way she holds her baby dolls and barbies would make you think she's ready to babysit an infant (not that I recommend it!). Every 5 minutes she will find me just to tell me she loves me, and at any play place she will come over to me every few minutes to hug me and tell me she loves me. She loves to hug and doesn't know a stranger, she will wink at anyone to make you smile. She also has the most energy out of the 3, she is on the go non stop. She gets started at 6:30 and is on the go until she goes to bed at 8. I can't believe she will be 3 in July, I just cant keep up with time now-a-days...
Carlee Grace is my third (and last!!) born child. Carrying her was by far the hardest out of the 3, in so many ways. 12 weeks into my pregnancy we found out that George would be leaving for Kuwait, so right off the bat it was an incredibly stressful pregnancy. When I was 38 weeks pregnant we decided to go to the mall to walk around and I needed to get a few things for the girls...little did I know my water would break in the Dillards bathroom! My whole delivery was just as surprising as where my water broke. My epidural wore off at 8 cms so I felt E V E R Y T H I N G. After 2 grueling hours of pushing with benedryl in my system she was finally out. 8 lbs 9 oz, 22 inches long, not sure where she fit in my tummy, but I was pretty shocked at her size! Now, she is 15 weeks old...already... she loves to smile, laugh, and is so very nosey! She is a chunk at 18 lbs (I weighed 17 lbs when I was 1!!), but she is so beautiful. She looks nothing like me, she is the spitting image of her daddy, she has his hairline and everything. She loves her carseat, she sleeps in it at night and would rather sit in it all day. She has a little book that she sleeps with every night, if you take it out of her seat she will wake up crying. She's the happiest baby, and the easiest one, she also sleeps all night :)

I know in August my life will change all over again. I will have to get used to having my husband home and not having to do everything by myself. However, I am counting down the days until I have my hubby home again, I can't even put into words how much I miss him. We've been married for 3 years now, and evem though our marriage has not been easy, I know at the end of the day I can count on him to be there for me. We've both grown so much and I look forward to grow together as a couple even more when he gets home. This deployment has shown me just how much I love him and I love the family we make.

Hopefully I will have time to write on a daily basis (or at least close to it), ill try!!